WACK!
My title describes exactly what happened to me this past week. That isn't to say that I was literally wacked, but rather figuratively and verbally. When you hear the work "wack!" what do you immediately think of? I think of a violent hitting upside the head. To be honest, that's what happened to my heart - my heart got wacked upside the... head.
We as interns had the privilege of spending the morning prayer time with Pastor Lo (spelling pending) and his disciple(?) on Friday, October 21st. He has a healing ministry and has been working in Zambia for the past couple - or perhaps many - years. Anyway, everything that this man of God said cut me to the heart. For so long I've desired to be filled with the Spirit, to have His anointing on my life in such a tangible way that God would heal people through me, do miracles, and do many other things. However, when Pastor Lo described the anointing, the attitude of my heart turned very serious very fast. With great anointing comes great responsibility...
Now (Nov. 14th), almost three weeks after beginning this post, I continue to get wacked in the head. But I'm not getting wacked by someone's words as much as I'm getting wacked by my own tendency to turn to anyone and anything except God when I'm tired, lonely, hurting, hungry, even happy. Who, or what, do I turn to? Food, sleep, friends, family, internet, movies, texting, blah blah blah... it's ridiculous. If I am called - by God - to a higher standard than the rest of this world, I need to STOP filling my life, mind, and ultimately my heart with everything but Him. HE is life everlasting; HE is my Comforter; HE satisfies me; HE is the source of joy. Do I get it, really? No, not yet. But I believe I will. Why? Because I become angry and frustrated after I've turned to other things, and eventually I believe I will stop turning to other things just to avoid the anger and frustration. And also because I truly do want to be Spirit led and above reproach, not being satisfied with mediocre but running after God first and foremost!!
And so in conclusion, this is what I hope you've gotten from this:
- Being anointed to work in the Holy Spirit is a big deal which comes with great responsibility
- We as believers (yes, you too) are all called to a higher standard of living
- The above things are hard, but in Christ (ALONE) we can do it
May God bless you so much as you too learn to live in this higher calling!
Cayla Renae
We as interns had the privilege of spending the morning prayer time with Pastor Lo (spelling pending) and his disciple(?) on Friday, October 21st. He has a healing ministry and has been working in Zambia for the past couple - or perhaps many - years. Anyway, everything that this man of God said cut me to the heart. For so long I've desired to be filled with the Spirit, to have His anointing on my life in such a tangible way that God would heal people through me, do miracles, and do many other things. However, when Pastor Lo described the anointing, the attitude of my heart turned very serious very fast. With great anointing comes great responsibility...
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Now (Nov. 14th), almost three weeks after beginning this post, I continue to get wacked in the head. But I'm not getting wacked by someone's words as much as I'm getting wacked by my own tendency to turn to anyone and anything except God when I'm tired, lonely, hurting, hungry, even happy. Who, or what, do I turn to? Food, sleep, friends, family, internet, movies, texting, blah blah blah... it's ridiculous. If I am called - by God - to a higher standard than the rest of this world, I need to STOP filling my life, mind, and ultimately my heart with everything but Him. HE is life everlasting; HE is my Comforter; HE satisfies me; HE is the source of joy. Do I get it, really? No, not yet. But I believe I will. Why? Because I become angry and frustrated after I've turned to other things, and eventually I believe I will stop turning to other things just to avoid the anger and frustration. And also because I truly do want to be Spirit led and above reproach, not being satisfied with mediocre but running after God first and foremost!!
And so in conclusion, this is what I hope you've gotten from this:
- Being anointed to work in the Holy Spirit is a big deal which comes with great responsibility
- We as believers (yes, you too) are all called to a higher standard of living
- The above things are hard, but in Christ (ALONE) we can do it
May God bless you so much as you too learn to live in this higher calling!
Cayla Renae
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